Sonus.

Yeah, I know my last blog was all like "I'LL NEVER USE THIS AGAIN. FAREWELL!"....but this is more of a promotional blog than a "what's going on in my life right now" blog...

Basically, my boyfriend has a band called Sonus with three other lovely chaps, and they're really good (and I'm not just being biased because I'm dating and sleeping with the lead guitarist), and you should all listen to them by clicking on this:

http://www.soundcloud.com/sonus_uk/tracks

And if you have Facebook, and you like them, you should also add them by clicking on this:

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Sonus/226753504035404

Thank you, lovely people. :)

Heart, Zoe. x

Au revior.

Since I began this blog in December 2008, I've wrote a total of 234 posts. (This post being my 235th). I was 16 years old when I began. I've wrote about countless friends and "lovers"; ones that I have lost on the way and others that are still in my life. I've complained about my performing arts education and motivation towards it, and also wrote about my passion for it. I've posted poetry and song lyrics and pictures that represented my life at that moment in time.

This place has been my outlet for nearly three whole years, but it's gotten to the point where I post something less that once a month. My only excuse for this is that I struggle these days to sit down in front of my computer and try and put my life in words. I love writing and I love letting the world know about everything that goes on around me, however mundane it can be sometimes, but I guess I'm growing up now and I don't feel the need to document on here every tiny thing that happens to me.

So much drama still goes on in my life. At the moment, Emma Cox, who was one of my best friends at college is no longer really in my life because of her actions these past 10 months or so. Jamie Glen, my current boyfriend, is still probably the most important person in my life right now, and I am madly in love with him. I have a good job at a pub that I love at this moment in time, but I'll be losing that at the beginning of 2012, which scares me. I miss my best friend, Rory Campbell, who now lives in Essex, and Hattie Partington and Tom Self are two people in my life right now who I couldn't live without, even though Tom is moving to London at the beginning of September. However, even though all of this is happening, I don't feel the urge to tell you any more. I used to find it helpful. Therapeutic, even. But I guess these days, I prefer to just live it and talk about it out loud, rather than typing it out and letting the world in.

It's crazy to look back at old things I have wrote and think about how much my life has changed drastically. I've learned so many life lessons because of everything I've been through, and if it wasn't for every little fall, I wouldn't be who I am today and have the people in my life that I care about dearly.

I'm not saying I'll never write on here again, but I'm just telling you not to expect anything on here anymore.
This isn't really goodbye. This is more of a thank you. I don't know who still reads this, but for anyone out there who does, I appreciate you following the rollercoaster that has been, and still is, my life.

Maybe one day I'll find a use for this again, but for now, I bid you all a farewell. :)

BIG heart, Zoe. x

You're the northern wind; sending shivers down my spine.

It's been a while. Too long, maybe? I'm not going to sit here and fill you in, in detail, about what I've been up to. But, I've had a birthday, been through a break up, been through a make up, finished college, had fun times out, and just generally been enjoying my life.

All I'm really going to say is that this boy...

...means more to me than anything right now.

Loving life. :)

Heart, Zoe. x

Rolling in the deep.

I'm on costume and wardrobe for this year's FMP at my college, which means I have to find/hire/buy/make/steal every single piece of costume for every single character.
Bearing in mind, there are a lot in Into the Woods.

I'm loving it at the moment, but I'm finding that once I get home from a long day of sewing and labelling and finding and sorting all the costumes, that my brain just doesn't switch off. I remember waking up several times in the middle of the night last night and having dreams about all of these costumes.

Seriously, it's taking over my life right now... But I am enjoying it, after constantly complaining about college these past however many months. It's a fun thing to end on.

There's not much else to fill you in on. My life literally is just college, my boyfriend and work right now. It's going well at the moment. :) I smile more than I do mope around at the moment.

Also, it's my birthday in one month and four days. I'm weirdly excited, even though I don't have plans yet. However, I heard 19 is a shit year to be. Is this true? Sounds about right, really.

Anyway, I'm going to get back to typing up costumes lists.

It just goes on, and on, and on.......

Heart, Zoe. x

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

It's been WAY too long.

I've been spending my time recently attempting college work, and failing. Let's put it this way: I have two big assignments due in on Thursday, and I'm only halfway through completing both. I have no free time from now until Thursday to do any. I should have done some today, but I didn't because QWOP and sanding my jeans to make holes and buying Kina Grannis and Jack Wills Polo tickets and watching Teen Mom 2 and texting Jamie seemed a lot more important, which, tbh, they are.
I've pretty much given up with college assignments. I'll get them done, but just in my own time.

Also, it's Rock Show 2011 tomorrow and Wednesday at 7pm. £4/£6. BUY TICKETS. It should be a good show. It's going to be the last time I ever perform on that college stage, and I am determined to go out with a bang.

As always, I've been spending lots of time with Jamie. He continues to put such a smile on my face, and I'm at my happiest when I'm with him. Things are going well. :) He's pretty amazing.

I'm resigning from Snakes and Ladders tomorrow morning, as I have this new job at the Flowing Well pub in Sunningwell, thanks to Hattie. It's better hours and better pay, so I'm not going to pass up that opportunity. :D

Um... YEAH. That's about it really. Apart from college work, things are pretty good right now! :)

I'll check in again sometime soon, I'm sure.
Sorry for being the worst blogger ever.

Heart, Zoe. x

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.

I'm currently just chilling at my darling boyfriend's house. Since the last post, John and Jamie (and now new resident Abi) finally got internet. :) Jamie is at band practice at the moment, so I have stolen his laptop. He was also stupid and left his Facebook logged in, resulting in my fraping him about how much he loves Justin Bieber. I could and would have done a lot worse, but my mum is friends with him on Facebook, so I thought I should keep it clean.

John is making a lovely roast for us four, like the lil' family we are. :) He also just made me a pretty good cup of tea. What a lovely person he is.

Anyway...yeah. On our Easter holiday, which is lovely, because right now, going to college is the last thing I want to do. I do, however, have a lot of college work to do before I go back which I have yet to begin...so maybe I should actually begin very, very soon, otherwise before I know it, Easter will be over and I'll be back at college getting my brain raped by my teacher for not doing it. (Obviously, not literally)

So far I've just worked at my wonderful job that I love so very much (so not lying...*ahem*) and seeing Jamie and seeing friends. Next week, I'm seeing Della and catching up with her, working a bit more, going to the dentist, and also spending a day with Hattie, which I can't wait for. :D
Notice how I didn't mention college work... Ha.

Looking forward to the rest of the holidays, anyway. :)

Feeling pretty good at the moment.
Have wonderful friends, a wonderful family, a wonderful boyfriend and things to look forward to. :)

Hope all is well with everyone!

Heart, Zoe. x

Stand by me.

So...it's been a while. I have no excuse really. I've hardly been at home which has meant no access to the internet, as I spend far too much time at Jamie's house, which isn't really a bad thing considering I like his house, his company, and John's cooking. However, I thought I'd update you as I'm currently at home and have some free time. I should be doing college work, but when do I ever do college work when I'm supposed to?

I haven't really been doing anything exciting with my life recently... Just enjoying the sunshine that we seem to be getting a lot of at the moment, which is always good because the sunshine always puts me in a good mood. :) I hope it stays... I'm sick of being cold and wearing coats and carrying around umbrellas and worrying about what my hair's going to look like when I'm walking down the street and the wind is vicious. Yeah.

I'm just in that Honeymoon period with Jamie at the moment, so all my life seems to revolve around right now is him, which is lame, but true... However, he makes me happy and smiley and spending time with him is THE thing that puts me in a great mood at the moment. Right now, I couldn't ask for anyone better.

College sucks at the moment. I don't really enjoy going in and it seems like it's more of a chore than anything else, which is a shame really...but what can you do? I'm hoping it will change, but right now, I live for the weekends...
I can't wait to get out of education full stop, really.. Education and assignments and finding motivation just makes me want to chunder everywhere right now.

Um... Yeah... I'm not doing too badly, though. :) Bring on the summer, that's all I'm saying...

Heart, Zoe. x

Czech me out.

So, I'm back from Prague. It's an absolutely stunning place, and there were so many good times. :) Also, it's unbelievable how cheap the alcohol is. Beer there is cheaper than water. It's crazy. I didn't like going to the pub and paying £5 for a double G&T when over there, I could get a litre of really nice dark ale for 80p...
Thanks to Megan, Luke and Hana for the photos. I stole them from Facebook and they're just a few of my favourite ones. :)

Real update soon.

Heart, Zoe. x

I guess he's Xbox, and I'm more Atari.

I'm off to Prague in five and a half hours time, and I won't be back until Friday morning...

I haven't updated this in a while because I've been too busy spending numourous amounts of time performing The Jungle Book to small children and seeing my wonderful new boyfriend. So...sorry about that.

But I'm sure after Prague, I will have a lot to write about, and maybe some cheeky pictures of some Prague things. :)

Hope all is well, bloggers.

Heart, Zoe. x

Red wine lips.

Stolen from Ross. Mega bored.

1. First person under J on your mobile phone?
Jack. :)

2. Do you hate that person?
No, not at all. Jack's a good ol' boy. :)

3. Who was the last person you took a picture with?

Hattie...kind of.. ;)

4. When did your last hug take place?
About half an hour ago, or so.

5. Ever been in love?
Yes.

6. When was the last time you smiled?
Like...now? :)

7. Does anyone like you as more than a friend?

Yusssss.. :)

8. What is something you really want right now?
A hug from someone special.

9. How many true friends do you have?
Like...three.

10. What is the last thing you put in your mouth?
A bit of Hattie's peanut butter cookie. OMNOM.

11. Do you prefer to call or text?
I don't really mind. :)

12. Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?

Gibbo.

13. Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
Yes.

14. Have you ever told anyone you were OK when you really weren’t?

Yes.

15. Does the number 17 have any signifigance to you?

Not reeeally, no.

16. Be honest, do you like people in general?
Meh...

17. Do you like anyone?
Yes. :)

18. Do you like your first name?
Yeah, s'alright! Could be worse.

19. Would you ever forgive someone if they cheated on you?
Nope.

20. Do you regret doing something today?
Nope.

21. Do you talk a lot?
Sometimes.

22. Do you miss anyone?
Yes.

23. When was the last time you cried?
I don't even remember, for once!

24. Do you ever get "good morning" texts from anyone?
Yes I dooooo... :)

25. Where is your phone?
Resting on my knee, lolol.

26. Have you done anything embarrassing lately?

Aha, probably.

27. Will you be up before 7am?
No way.

28. What is something you disliked about your day?
It was tiring.

29. Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
I woke up at like...6am, which is two hours before my alarm. That was not cool.

30. Do you hate being alone?
Meh, sometimes.

31. When's your birthday?
29th June.

32. Ever been told "it’s not you, it's me"?
Hahaha, yeah.

33. Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
Yeah. :) Like..now?

34. Can you recall the last time you boned someone a lot?
LOL. UHHHH. LOL.

35. Do you have any saved texts?
Nooo.

36. What's irritating you right now?
Not much, tbh! :)

37. Have you ever told someone to their face they were ugly?
Lol, no. That's just mean.

38.Whats on your bed right now?
I don't know...um...probably my dressing gown and one of my ukuleles.

39. What's your favourite word or phrase?
I say "douche" waaay too much.

40. Name 3 people who made you smile today?
Jamie, Hattie and Megan.

41. What were you doing at 8am this morning?
Waking up....again...

42. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Like...walking through my door?

43. What is your favourite holiday?
Christmas.

44. Have you ever been to another country?
Yes.

45. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"AHHHHHH!"....no joke.

46. What is the best ice cream flavor?
Choclit.

47. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Some craaazy cocktail. It was tasty.

48. What are you wearing right now?
Black tights, black high-waisted shorts, flowery top, grey cardigan.

49. What was the last thing you ate?
A bit of one of Hattie's peanut butter cookies.

50. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
Nope.

51. What's the last sporting event you watched?
Football in the pub earlier for like...3 minutes, hahaha!

52. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Italy.

53. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on facebook?
Megan. :)

54. Ever go camping?
Rarely.

55. Do you have a tan?
No, lol.

56. Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
Actually, no! Haha!

57. Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
Loads.

58. What did your last text message say?
";) x"

59. Are you someone's best friend?
Yeah. :)

60. What are you doing tomorrow?
College from 9:30am - 6pm, and then seeing "Paul" with Jamie. :)

61. Where is your mum right now?
In bed.

62. Look to your left, what do you see?
The fireplace, a clock, loads of envelopes.

63. What color is your watch?
I don't have a watch.

64. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Kangaroooos. :)

65. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
Yeah maaan.

66. What is your birthstone?
I don't know, and I cba to look it up.

67. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?

Usually go in.

68. Do you have any friends on Facebook that you actually hate?
Yeah, LOL.

69. Do you have a dog?
Nope.

70. Any plans today?
Sleep? Afterall, it is 11:55pm.

71. Are you happy?
YES. :D

72. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Jungle Book...

73. Last song listened to?
Red Wine Lips by Lisa Mitchell.

74. Last movie you saw?
Shallow Hal. :)

75. Are you allergic to anything?
Penecillin.

76. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
My brown ankle boots. :)

77. Are you jealous of anyone?
Meh, no...not really.

78. Is anyone jealous of you?
I doubt it!

79. Do any of your friends have children?
Nope, lol.

80. Do you eat healthy?
I'm not the best, but I'm okay! I do try.

81. What do you usually do during the day?
College.

82. Do you hate anyone right now?
Yeah, lol.

83. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
Yeah.

84. How many kids do you want when you're older?
I don't knowwww.

85. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
19. :)

86. How did you get one of your scars?

By cutting myself on a cushion. HA.

87. Did I run out of questions?

Apparently so.

Well...that wasted a good 10 minutes or so!

News: Zoe is in a relationship.
Zoe is happy. :)
HAPPY ZOZ.

Heart, Zoe. x

Tear down your barricades so I may enter.

Oh, maaan... I've been drinking so much recently, which is completely unlike me. Last week (the week of the 31st of January - the 6th of February) I had three hangovers, and whilst writing this, I'm nursing myself back to health from a crazy night at Megan's last night.
I'm not really complaining. The nights I've had have been worth the turmoil I get the next day.

I've also been brushing up on my ukulele skills quite a lot recently. It's such an addictive thing. It's all I ever really want to do these days, and when I don't have either Genevieve, Noah or Spongebob, I crave them to buggery.

You never know, I might be in The Ukulele Orchestra of Great Britain one day. ;) Watch this space.

Anyway... This is literally a short entry today. A quick check in to let you know that I'm still alive and everything... I would write more but my eyes are slowly closing from the lack of sleep, so I don't really want this post to finish with random letters and numbers and punctuation from where I've literally passed out and my head's just slumped on the keyboard, so I think I'll stop typing now...

Hope you're all well. A real post soon, I promise.

Heart, Zoe. x

Come with me to the sea of love.

Hi. Long time, no blog. Well, if you consider like...a week 'long', which I do. It feels like forever.
My life at the moment just revolves around college, and all of my friend's lives revolve around drama school and auditions. It's a sad state of affairs.

I finally finished my Confusions assignments. It's a shame that Tony had set us two MORE assignments before the Confusions assignments were due in.... I have an essay to do for Monday, and I highly doubt that's going to happen.
Not to mention the fact I am ill to buggery right now. I can feel it's the beginning of a horrendous cold. I can't wait.

We're working towards The Jungle Book at college at the moment. It's a bit of a fail at the moment, and I'm really hoping it gets better considering I'm Mowgli, and that will be crazily embarrassing if it goes tits up. Although, I managed to convince Tony that I should play the ukulele in it. This excites me. :D
Oh, and me and my friend Tom have our own radio show at college, starting next Wednesday. We're going to be talking about our lives, and Eastenders, and musicals, and whatever else we fancy talking about at the time. Oh, and playing some kick-ass music, because our music taste is wonderful. It's going to be banter, and I can't wait.

Anyway, that's my life right now. Stressful and busy. D:

Congratulations to my lovely friends Diarmaid and Matt for getting a full place at ALRA. :) SO happy for them right now.
And happy birthday to Rory. He's 20. That's a scary thought. I miss him tons. :(

Heart, Zoe. x

Spit at stars.

Happy Friday afternoon! Currently lounging on the sofa listening to a bit of Every Time I Die. I am so unbelievably stressed right now. I have so much college work to do, it's insane. I really shouldn't be writing this. I should be on Microsoft Word 2010, writing about fresnel lanterns and flood lanterns and profile lanterns and parcan lanterns and followspots and colour gels and gobos and how amazing all of these things are and how they work and what they do and etc etc etc...

But, of course, I'm procrastinating...like I have been doing for the past four hours since I've been home. I never learn.

Last night I stayed at Jack's. He had a free house so a load of us lovely college people went around to his and had merry, drunken times. It was a good night. I think the highlight was Matt and I going on chatroulette and doing some ukulele improv to random people. It was definitely a night I needed to help relieve the stress I have right now.

But, anyway...yeah. Things are alright. Just need to get all of this delightful work out of the way and then I'll feel a lot better.
Oh, but before I go, Jack showed me this insane video last night and I literally haven't stopped watching it since.

Enjoy!

Heart, Zoe. x

Challenge Day.

I watched this programme today called "If You Really Knew Me". I went into watching it not knowing anything about it at all. It was on MTV, and I like most of the programmes that I probably shouldn't on MTV, so I thought "hey, why the fuck not?"

Basically, it's a programme about this organisation in America called "Challenge Day". Challenge Day addresses common issues that are seen at most schools, such as cliques, bullying, negative judgements, sexism, racism, homophobia, sterotypes, hopelessness and hidden pressures to fit in, create an image and achieve or live up to the expectations of others.

"If You Really Knew Me" follows people's journeys as they participate in Challenge Day, and you get to see the change in people and see people open up about their lives and their struggles, and how they begin to accept everyone into their lives... You get to see a community come together as one.

It was a really interesting thing to watch. I disliked school a lot, and it made me think that if we had this organisation come to my school whilst I was there, maybe it would have changed my experience a lot. Maybe it would have made me enjoy school a lot more... You wouldn't have to be afraid to walk down the corridor and be judged. You could talk to anyone you wanted to, without the pressure of having to hide who you really are.

I wish we had a Challenge Day in England. I think the whole movement is a pretty genius idea.

Just a thought on this Sunday evening.

http://www.challengeday.org/

Heart, Zoe. x

Timshel.

It's Saturday night. Well...Sunday morning if you want to be technical about it, which I do.

I don't have much to say, so I'm just going to SHARE THE LOVE.

Side note: Before I wrote "SHARE" just then, I accidentally wrote "SHAKE" instead. Oops.

So, I'm here to "shake" the love, apparently...

To do this, I'm showing you this video of a cover of Timshel by Mumford and Sons, which is a sweet as a nut song.

I wish I could say this was my cover and I just suddenly became amazing at guitar and amazing at singing to a camera, but it's not... But enjoy anyway. It's by Kina Grannis and her sisters, so you know it's going to be good. And if you don't know, then just trust me when I say it's going to be good. Because it is.

You're all very welcome.

Heart, Zoe. x

Save me from me.

Just something random before I turn off my laptop and go to bed...

You know that whole "The Game" thing? That "Ohhh, I just lost the game", and then everyone around you is like "ohhh, you're such a dick because you made me think of it and now I've lost it too. Boo hoo hoo"... You know, yeah?

I really hate it.

I'm that person who, when in that situation, will go "well...I didn't because I don't play it because it's a pile of wank", and then I get:

"YEAH, BUT EVERYONE IN THE WORLD PLAYS THE GAME, SO YOU HAVE LOST IT ACTUALLY."

And then, that person gets a punch in the face for being a douche. If I don't want to play your shitty game that makes no sense and isn't really a game because 1) it has no skill and 2) you can't actually win it, then I won't. So go away.

I don't know. Just a random thought I had at...3:54am.

In other news, I just bought a Jack Will's jumper and a pair of Jack Will's underwear from Jack Will's, funnily enough. And, a top and a pair of shoes from Urban Outfitters. I felt like treating myself. Plus, I got paid, so I have a shit load of money. Wheyyy.

I really should sleep now though. I need to get up at a relatively okay time tomorrow so I can spend the day doing college work. Fun times for Zoz!

Heart, Zoe. x

This world is doomed.

I'm currently watching a programme called "Pre-teen proms", which basically translates to "10 year old's with huge egos, and bitchy personalities; fighting for the best outfit, hair and entrance".

I wouldn't mind so much if these "proms" (which, by the way, is an American term) were just a school disco with a table in the corner of the room which had a couple of bottles of coke and a few bowls of crisps on it, but they're not. These 10 year olds ACTUALLY give a shit whether they have a limo, an expensive outfit, big hair, and EVEN whether they're "prom king or queen". I mean, seriously? I don't remember hardly anything from when I was at primary school. In fact, I don't remember anything from when I was 10. I think all I really cared about was cartoons, Britney Spears and food. 2 out of 3 of those are still true. (Guess which ones)...

Why would you want your children, when they're that age, begin to have competitions about what they look like, and about they're shitty little entrances on a tacky horse and carriage? And then spend hundreds and hundreds of pounds so everyone remembers them for possibly a few months, if that. I don't even understand why people do it for the main "year 11 prom", yet alone when you're in year fucking 6. I mean, one boy just got fitted in a French Connection suit, for God sake...but it's okay, because "HE LOOKS SO GROWN UP".... When, at that age, he just shouldn't. He's 10.

And they EVEN give a shit about whether they have dates or not, and that, for me, just takes the fucking cake.

One mother just said that she thinks it's important that girls begin to start plucking their eyebrows and shaving their legs when they're that age, because "society is changing"....again, who gives a shit?

A lot of parents can't afford limos and expensive clothes and go to the hairdressers for that one night, and you can't tell me that it's fair on that one kid that doesn't get that, and they're not going to feel like shit. Well done for ruining their childhood and making them feel insanely insecure before they've even gotten to Secondary school.

I don't know... I just don't understand why they can't just be kids. I'm so glad I didn't have to worry about, or think about things like that when I was 10. Fuck that.

Basically, this world is doomed.

Heart, Zoe. x

With or without you.

Right now, it is cold and it is windy and it is wet and it is depressing and it is dull, but if you look hard enough, you can find some pretty things...

Heart, Zoe. x

Fast Car.

Literally haven't stopped listening to this song all night.

So, what will your legacy be?

Happy new year, and all that. The difference in amount of blogs that I posted in 2009 compared to 2010 is quite a large number, so I apologise for that. I can't promise that 2011 is going to improve though. These days, my life is so boring that I have nothing to write about! I always think it's better to just say nothing at all than bore people to death. ;)

New year was pretty uneventful for me. I always find that new years is such a let down. You can plan this amazing party or plan to go out somewhere really sweet, but it 98% of the time, it usually ends up sucking. I didn't go out this year. I stayed in and decided to watch Jools Holland with my parents, whilst snuggled in my Spongebob blanket. Told you my life was boring, didn't I? ;)

Christmas was alright though. Nice and quiet, just the way I like it. I'm so glad my family aren't a fussy and busy family. I enjoy just staying at home and relaxing, instead of rushing around in cars and such to get places to see people that you hardly see throughout the entire year, and then have to be incredibly nice and polite.

Yeah, I've got it good when it comes to Christmas.

Apart from recently becoming a singleton, nothing else has really changed since I did a proper 'life' post.....not that I can even remember when that last was anyway. I'm just plodding on, as per usual. I have so much college work to do though which I really should start very, very soon....but we all know I won't. ;)

Life's okay though, you know... I'm just trying to not be alone as much as possible, so then I don't think about problems as much, or if I do, then I have someone there to talk to about it. Things are weird without Stephen, and I'm as confused as fucking ever....but I'm just taking each day as it comes. Once I get back to college in a couple of weeks, then I'm sure I'll be okay with the whole situation. We'll have to see...

But anyway, I'm sure I've bored you enough with my boring, boring life.

I'll try not to be as boring next time. :)

Heart, Zoe. x

...and the sky cried down for days and days...

Today was the first time in History where I think Snakes and Ladders closed early. I attempted riding to work on my bike at 9:30am this morning, but the snow was so bad that I couldn't see and the snow was just getting in my eyes. In the end, I had to walk. We had those annoying customers that will do ANYTHING in their power to drive their kids to Snakes and Ladders. I felt sorry for the kids. You could tell all they wanted to do was just go outside and build a snowman or something. Instead, they were stuck in a dark, giant, cold building with no atmosphere. Fun fun fun. In the end though, my boss decided to close up. I can't say walking back in the snow was more fun, considering it was heavier and a lot more thick than when I walked there, but I made it home eventually and did absolutely nothing with my afternoon, which is exactly what I wanted. Plus, the snow is pretty and made the walk home a lot more interesting. It's so quiet when it snows because there's like..no traffic. It's so nice. :)

Anyway, I hope it will be like this next Saturday. It probably won't, but it will be cool beans if it did. :) I haven't been feeling very "Christmassy" recently. For some reason, it doesn't feel like Christmas. But today has changed that all. :)

I wish people would stop moaning about it, though. And I wish people would stop pointing out the obvious. Every time I log onto Facebook, my news feed is just clogged with "OMG its snowing well heavy LOL" or "Oh, ffs... I HATE SNOW". Yes, it's an inconvenience. Yes, you can't drive very fast, or really at all. But let's just enjoy it, shall we? It is Christmas after all. :)

Currently listening to Justin Nozuka. His music makes me smile. Check him out if you haven't before.

Heart, Zoe. x

And you can tell everybody that this is your song.

- War of the Worlds at the o2 in London.

- New purple, sparkly ukulele.

- Vintage Laura Ashley hat for £4.

I can't really complain right now, can I?

Christmas shopping is going well. I only have my two brother's, Ross' and the rest of Rory's to go now.

WHEY.

CHRISTMAS.

WHEY.

Heart, Zoe. x

Awkward.

There is so much I could talk about right now. Some good and some bad. But, all I really want to say is that the smell of burnt peanut butter has been lingering in my house for two days now. I really wish it would go.

Heart, Zoe. x

Quiz.

I don't fancy writing about my life at the moment. Not when I don't really know what's going on. So, instead, I'll do a quiz. First time for my blog. Enjoy.

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Where did you meet the last person you were in a car with?

All at college about two years ago. :)

Besides this survey, what are you doing right now?

BBM-ing Megan and occasionally glancing at the TV.

Will you be up before 7am tomorrow?

Nahhh way, maan.

Did you kiss anyone today?

Nope.

What’s the best thing that happened to you today?

Today was quite funny actually. Megan and I had a good ol' chuckle in set building. Haha!

How old do you think you’ll be when you have kids?

I have no clue.

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I highly doubt it.

Are you waiting for something?

Yes!!

When was the last time you hugged a member of the opposite sex?

Earlier on today.

What’s your relationship with the last person you text?

Jamz is my very good friend. :)

What did you do today?

Set built at college, went to town at lunch. Wheyy.

Do you have a friend of the opposite gender you can talk to?

Yes. A few actually.

What is bothering you right now?

One main thing, but I'm trying to distract myself from it.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Nope. I'm rubbish.

Have you ever lived with your girlfriend/boyfriend?

Nope.

Have you ever taken someone back after they’ve cheated?

Nope.

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or closed?

Closed. Obviously.

Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out of your life?

Yes.

Are you really happy or are you just saying that?

I'm not really happy at the moment, but I'm coping. I can smile and laugh, at least.

Do you think relationships are hard?

Yeah. They're not easy things, any way.

How do you feel about your relationship status?

Not great. Keeping positive.

When was the last time you cried?

Yesterday.

Do you have trust issues?

I don't really know. I don't think so, but I don't just trust anyone.

Who was the last person that you threw out of your life?

I'd say Jess Matthews.

Is there something you want to tell someone?

Yesyesyes.

Who was the last person you had an argument with?

Stephen.

Has anyone made your day better even if it wasn’t by much?

Yes.

How many relationships have you been in?

Proper ones? 3.

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?

Loads.

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?

Maybe? I don't know.

Have you ever been in a relationship you never wanted to end?

Yes.

I wish I could fly, and magically appear and disappear.

I'm currently lying slap bang in the middle of Stephen's huge double bed, with one duvet and two blankets covering me. I want to listen to music, but I don't know Stephen's password for his Spotify..... Goddamn it.

Anyway. Stephen went to work at 7:30am this morning. He finishes at 1:30pm, where he'll be meeting his parents and I at a theatre in Bristol to watch a show. Exciting times. I can't be bothered to get out of bed though. I am too warm and toasty.
However, there's a roast chicken and salad sandwich waiting for me in his fridge. I want it. D:

I just thought I'd write a lil' sumin'sumin' because I was bored. :)

Heart, Zoe. x

Ross Noble.

Probably THE funniest man to ever walk on this planet.

The 7th November was the second time I have seen him live. He definitely did not disappoint.

:)

P.S: If anyone wants to buy me a Christmas present, then buy me a Ross Noble DVD? Please? Y'know, either "Things" or "Nobleism" or "Fizzy Logic" or "Randomist" or "Sonic Waffle" or "Unrealtime"...... Thanks. :D x

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This

can't

be

the

end.

:(

Missing you.

Watch me fall, watch me fall down.

There's an aching in my skin,

I wanna get out, wanna get out;

Out of mind, out of time, and into you.

Into you...

They say "people grow, let it go.

Time will heal your bleeding wounds."

But, I don't think it's gonna work out that easy.

I'll be missing you.

Missing you...

- "Missing You" by Kina Grannis.

Monster mash.

This is my pumpkin of awesomeness.

Happy Halloweeeeen. :)

I'm your puppet.

It's nice to check your bank account and see you've been paid, and had money taken out by O2 for your phone bill, and then have MORE money than you did before any of this happened.

I like looking at my bank account and seeing I have over £150. A rarity really.

I also just got a letter posted through the door from Natwest telling me I'm FINALLY getting a new bank card, and it's not going to be a shitty Solo/Maestro any more, and it's now going to be a Visa Debit. Now I won't have a problem with First Great Western telling me I'm lying and refusing to accept my card when buying train tickets, because 'apparently it's not really a maestro', even though it is. Fail, First Great Western. Mega fail.

I'm also really, really, really ill right now. My throat feels like it's got a flaming bowling ball stuck inside it, and I keep getting more hot flushes than the average menopausal woman. Oh, and my nose is blocked. Ewww.

AND, I have work tomorrow, Friday and Saturday. I am pretty much screweddd.

Halloween though this weekend. I'll be putting up some awesome pictures of the awesome pumpkins myself and my family will be carving, so stay in tuned for that.

I must go now. Going to town with my mother.

Heart, Zoe. x

Harry Hill's TV Burp.

Last night, my brother Ashley, my mum, my good friend Tom and myself went to go and watch Harry Hill's TV Burp get recorded at the BBC Television Studios. It was great fun! We queued for a good two and a half hours or so, but it was worth it as we got great seats and a great view of the whole set. Note, that the picture to your left isn't the view from where we were sitting. I didn't want to risk taking a picture before filming from where we were sitting, just in case someone shouted at me. D: As you can see from the picture, they're tidying up and stuff, so it was at the end.
I don't want to spoil Saturday's episode for any of you, if you are Harry Hill fans and watch the show, so I'm not going to tell you any of the things that happened, but we might be on TV on Saturday, because there was an audience shot in very close to us, so you never know!

It was interesting to see how they filmed it. They basically recorded the whole show as if it was going out live. They just did a full run through and only stopped briefly if Harry forgot his lines or if there was a technical problem or something like that, but that didn't really happen very much, but was funny when it did anyway! The "fight" had to be done a couple of times to get it right, but the fight was awesome, so it was okay. Then, the producers looked over part one first and then they re-shot any scenes or lines or changed anything they thought didn't work well, which wasn't much, and then did the same for part two. Then, they did one specific scene which involved water, so obviously, they wanted to do the messy scene right at the end, which makes sense really. We had a nice chap who kept us entertained when they were setting things up or when there were pauses, and right at the beginning before the whole recording process began. Overall, we were in there for a good two hours, and possibly a bit more. We also got free beer in the foyer, which is never a bad thing. It was so worth the waiting and constant standing around and etc. Considering we didn't actually pay for the tickets itself, it was pretty good! It was good to feel like a part of it, as the audience and their reactions is such an important part of the show, especially for Harry Hill's TV Burp. It's also good that they don't use canned laughter or edit the laughter in themselves as well.

I'd recommend any one go and see it get recorded, or any show get recorded really. It's so interesting to actually watch how they do things and a really good experience.

It was a good day, overall. :)

Heart, Zoe. x

R.I.P Rocky.

Rest in peace, Rocky. You were a wonderful budgie and the house is annoyingly quiet without you chirping away to music and people and what-not.

Love you ALWAYS. :) Have fun in budgie heaven.

Heart, Zoe. x

(This is where I would insert a picture of Rocky, but I don't have one. WAHHHH.)

:(

The point sometimes.

Get rid of the ocean

if you ever wanna see me again.

Our shores are separating,

with or without a boat.

And you know that nothing lasts forever,

and depending on the weather,

I'm a changer.

And I know that if November had been deader,

if we'd hidden a bit better,

we'd be strangers.

And this breeze blew in

with a glitch in the tide.

Disguised as storm free,

begging me please to take a ride.

Well, soften your sails and take a ride.

Open the wings and let her fly.

And I can't see the point sometimes.

You're a rock, I'm a gull.

Might be okay to stay if you could hold me,

but you got no way to do so.

And you know that as the water rises

possible perch shrinks in size,

and I'll take off.

And this breeze blew in

with a glitch in the tide.

Disguised as storm free,

begging me please to take a ride.

Well, soften your sails and take a ride.

Open the wings and let her fly

And you know that nothing lasts forever,

and depending on the weather,

I'm a changer,

I'm a changer,

I'm a changer,

I'm a changer.

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I've been listening to Gregory and the Hawk non-stop all evening. So, so, so good.

Just thought I'd give you something a bit different on this uneventful, Monday night.

Heart, Zoe. x