Love came down at Christmas.

So, it was Christmas like...two days ago. :)

Christmas was pretty awesome this year. I got some nice stuff and Stephen also came round for about an hour or so. :)

My presents consisted of:

From parents - DVD player, purple trackies, purple cardigan, bras, Lindt santa, giant chocolate coin, 2010 diary, deodorant, face wipes, nail varnish, mascara, green eye liner, pyjamas, boot slippers and £20. :)

From Ashley - Weebl's Stuff calender. ;D

From my Nan and Gramps - A Twining's gift set, consisting of a mug, Twinings hot chocolate and a mini hot water bottle. :)

From my Uncle - A compact mirror. :)

From Ross - Some mittens and a bracelet. :)

From Rory - An anchor necklace and a Spongebob poster. ;)

From Ruth - Gok Wan beauty gift set. :)

From Stephen - A clock necklace, a book called "Ugly Shy Girl" and a bag. :) <3

From Stephen's parents - An Impulse gift bag and £15. :)

All in all, it was good. :) I was quite lucky this year.

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas and Boxing day. I spent yesterday evening with Stephen's family and looking at old photos of him, and then watching The Inbetweeners for about three hours. xD

It's so nice to have him home. :) He's made my Christmas the best ever.

I love being so in love with him.. :)

Jack's 18th party tonight. Gonna be sick. :)

Heart, Zoe. x

Love me, love me.

Stephen's home for Christmas now.

Usually, I go on about how I want time to fly by, but this time, I don't. I want these next two weeks to go as slowly as possible.

I want to savour them.

Christmas is in four days. I am excited. :)

Heart, Zoe. x

Goodbye waves and driveways.

Right now, things are pretty fucked up. I could explain it, but I think it's safer if I don't.

I've never been in fear for my life before. Not knowing what could happen. All of these scenarios play in your mind, and each one gets worse and worse.

Right now, every second, minute, hour are precious. I'm not saying that 'I'm spending them as if they're my last', because I'm not really. Since last night, I've spent them just as I usually would; watching TV, playing DS, listening to music.. You know.

What else can I do? Bungee jump?...

I suppose that I'm surviving. My family and I all are right now, I guess, but I fucking hope that it stays that way...

I love you all. Don't forget that, please.

Heart, Zoe. x

Waiting.

I basically just wrote this.

Writer's block has been with me for a while now, but I suppose it's just decided to leave me for a while to.... get a cup of tea or something.

:)

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I called out in to the heavy storm
and I watched patiently
for your silhouetted form
to come home.

And I waited, and I waited,
and I waited some more.
But it took a while for your
silhouetted form to
find it’s way through the heavy storm.

I could wait a thousand days for you.
& a million more if I really had to.

Distance isn’t an issue
when I know that my heart and soul
have you,
and that you are my own.

But, please...
Hurry up and come home.

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Heart, Zoe. x

Kiss me.

It was the last day of college today, which is wicked as now I get lots of lay-ins. Apart from on Saturdays, of course, as I have work. & on the four extra days I said I would do.

Ahh. Sometimes I think I'm crazy doing extra days at work, but then I think of all of the money I will get. ;D Yay for moneyz.

I saw Stephen yesterday, which was fucking amazing. He came down on Sunday night and left this morning, for personal reasons that I don't think I should start spouting here on my blog. But anyway, he came round yesterday and we had fun times just listening to music, watching Russell Howard and just being our usual selves.

He's coming down for Christmas in six days, and I can't fucking wait. Christmas with him is going to be amazing. The best Christmas yet. :)

I've still got a bit of Christmas shopping to do. I got most of it done on Sunday, bar a few things, but I can get them in the week.

Jamie's coming home on Thursday too, which is awesome. :)

Good mood at the moment, apart from the fact that my arm aches because of my jab. Having dead cancer shoved into your arm isn't my idea of 'fun'... but oh well. :)

I just felt like I should write something, as I haven't in a while.

I hope you're all feeling as Christmassy as I am right now. :)

Write soon.

Heart, Zoe. x

Catch the breeze and the winter chills.

You do crazy things when you're in love...

*Fingers crossed*

<3

I've been hiding from your compass.

I'm feeling a lot better than I have been these last few days. Sunday night, Monday and yesterday were pure hell. But today, I woke up and I wasn't tired, and I managed to go through the day without feeling like I was going to pass out from lack of sleep. Also, my appetite is back and I can stomach more than just cherry tomatoes and nectarines.

I've eaten three punnets of cherry tomatoes in two days. One yesterday and two today.

I am a cherry tomato-eating machine.

Saying all this, my throat still feels like it's made out of sandpaper, and breathing through my nose is difficult. I can deal with that though. I can't deal with no appetite and no sleep...

Today, we went to London to this Theatre Craft thing. We went to it last year, but didn't really take much notice of the important stuff, and only about the free pens and mouse mats. This year, we thought it would be more relevant.

In my honest opinion, it wasn't. There were no stalls at all really, and my workshops were meh. It was a shame really. I thought going might give me a better idea about what I might like to do, but it didn't at all, because there wasn't anything there!
I did, however, get a free pen, chocolate coin, a keyring with a bottle opener on and two triangle highlighters, so I suppose it wasn't all bad. ;P

Tomorrow is Cyrano rehearsals. Blah blah blah. I'm so glad it'll be over in a week and a day, and I know I'm definitely not the only one. ;)

Oh, and to finish this blog; If I see another advert for Band Hero with Taylor fucking Swift on it, singing that shitty song, I will have probably have to throw my TV out the window.

& that goes the same for the Go Compare advert, which I luckily haven't seen in a while, but it wouldn't surprise me if that singing douchefag invades my TV screen again... -.-

:D

Heart, Zoe. x